fml. again? i don't do things by halves, do i!

Happy 89th Birthday. I hope you're having a good time up there, if you were right about it existing. I hope you found your sweetheart again. I love you.

I sometimes, no, I always wish you were still here. You always knew just what to say and when to say it, when I needed a plain old hug or whether I needed advice. You always knew. I could do with you right now, if I'm honest. I miss our Friday nights in, with our naughty trip to the sweet shop, and us watching Morse and South Park - Our idea of a compromise. & our Saturdays to town, or even just the corner shop and watching films if you were having a bad day. You're still the only person mad enough to let me watch The Sound of Music with you! I really, really miss everything about you. I always will. I just hope you've found a place with your sweetheart where there's no aches or pain. I can't believe it's been three years already. Time flies, I guess.

I hope you, my Granddad & my Grandpa are all looking down on us, if you were right, or atleast looking out for us in your own way. We could all do with an angel on our shoulder at times, and I'm lucky enough to have three.

i have no fight left in me whatsoever.
i'm clearly a mug where that one is concerned.

I have done several things in the past two weeks that I have always said I would never do.
I can't currently decide whether I regret or not. I don't think I do. I don't see why I should, nobody is getting hurt, I don't think. One person may be, though. His problem? I wish that didn't have an affect on me.

We'll see.

i could probably do with a massive massive vent atm, but, i'm supposed to be getting ready for work, so all i'm going to say on the matter is, thanks for that, i thought you had more respect for me than that. if i don't get a worthwhile respsonse within a week, well, less really, i'm going to be ridiculously miffed/upset, but i suppose if it comes to that, everything i didn't want to accept has just been put infront of me - big fat refreshing slap in the face. maybe i needed it.

on the other hand, just been paid, hurrah. defo been taxed, boo. i still need to claim back moneys off adams too, hm. last payment to jmu is on the 1st too, thank god that'll be over with. but i bet sfe will start soon. :/ ridic. everybody i've spoken to in my situation has said they've not had to pay back until they've gone back and finished their education. sly! so i have to chase that up i guess.

easter soon, woo cause people'll be home, boo cause i'll be working loads. SLY that. i'm grateful for the hours, but they defo need to take more staff on, i'm not supposed to be full time. :/ anywho, i best go get ready for work. odd how today is the longest sleep ive had in about two weeks and i'm more tired than i was originally. well, maybe abit less tired, several 5am starts don't bide well with me like, but so. i'm tired and i don't get it. :')

atleast emma's coming round later. i spy a sulk/a rant/a film/munch and general cheering up.

Starbucks

I started today, hurrah. It wasn't too bad - I think it went quite well, everybody was friendly, I didn't burn anyone/anything aaand I made quite a few drinks. Smug.

The pay is better than I thought, too. So I'm looking forward to getting stuck in :)
Unimpressed with not being allowed to wear a watch though? Sly.

I'm in again tomorrow and Friday, too. :)

I think tonight calls for a cup of tea and a new book; I bought another Nicholas Sparks one the other day. 'The Last Song', it sounds good - About a girl who gets moved away by her parents, and finds her first love. I love his writing style - The Notebook made me sob, fully sob. What a girl, eh.
He writes quite 'emotional' stuff for a guy, his work seems focused on romance and the strength of love etc - Especially The Notebook and A Walk to Remember. Both beautiful stories, about how 'love conquers all'. I guess it's a nice change for a guy to have such a view though.

I can't wait to get into bed tonight; shattered. I'm going to be a sad git and wait for a reply first though. Impatient me, I hate waiting. If I don't get said reply, I'm going to fume abit and then give up on that. ...I say this, but I won't.

Lady Gaga has announced more tour dates - wheyyy. Buzzbuzz. So going.